Thursday 1 February 2018

Trust to words


                            A Husband Tale


A beautiful summer season is going on and I am in mood of full relax after a hectic work schedule I got a week-off. Oh my God this season is so warm I told to myself and run the A.C as I want to feel that I am living in Shimla. I was enjoying my Shimla soon after I realize my virtual Shimla, yes you read right virtual Shimla, being a IT professional you have no right to ask for a leave for a vacation because tight deadlines of project doesn’t allow to enjoy your life even when you are out of office and you have many leaves pending.... leaving all these worries ... I was enjoying low temperature of my room and suddenly realized some hotness. But why...AC was on its minimum level.... to find the answer of my why.... saw the AC ... what is this AC was turn off...and I know who did it ...it was none other than  shanjh..... My Wife Shanjh switched off the A.C and said “Mr. Husband till what time you want to sleep...hmmm....it’s already an evening “wake up yarrrr” ..... Though I don’t want to wake up but after a deep breath and a great yawn I said ok... and woke up
Yes a great nap that’s something I want from a long time due to deadline of project,  I spent so many nights restlessly ...but this week off I want to compensate all those restless nights. I think I do justice with myself ... hihihihi kidding....  after relaxing whole day I come out from my room and sit to my favourite place and it is  my “balcony” favourite  because I can see the whole town, rush on the roads , open sky, and yes beautiful faces also ... hahahaha..
Shanjh prepare the nice cup of tea for both of us... me and shanjh were enjoying our evening with strong tea and some cookies... like I said earlier this is my favourite place and I was noticing the rush on the roads and the noise coming from that crowed...then shanjh told to me what are you looking on roads ...if you really want to notice something then look at the sun sat Mr. Husband... how beautiful it is & this sunset making this whole sky more beautiful by spreading the warm red colour all over the sky and this red coloured sun want to say us so what today I sat tomorrow I will rise again till then smile beautiful, look at these black clouds, giving a fine outline to these red coloured sky ....she described the whole sky as a canvas. But seriously I didn’t notice anything... I was busy with shanjh... no colour is as warm as shanjh rosy cheeks.... and no outline was as sharp as shanjh kajal I don’t need to see the beautiful sky ...... my shanjh has all the shades of natural beauty.
Before I could say anything to shanjh, how beautiful she is, we heard noise of vehicles  ... so much rush on the roads everyone was in hurry & again shanjh continued  ...are you listening this noise dear... its  seems that any race is going on and everyone is participating in this race but the best part of this race is nobody is going to win the single penny of cash or cheque or any medium of the money and this race has many winner. I smiled and said so my dear wife if there is no prize money so why all these are participating.... it was her turn to answer my question & she didn’t take a single second for answering my baby...like every race there is also a prize but not money she later said prize money is nothing but the time, precious lovely time which never goanna back honey, these people want nothing but time to enjoy with their priorities, with their love, with themselves
She hold my hand...and I was seeing her eyes  ...shanjh completed her sentence with an additional line.. As I am spending my time with my priority.... my love..... And it’s you.. Stupid she kissed my hand... & laugh loudly her lipstick mark on my hands it was bold red, she really like this lip shade ....pinkie rosy cheeks, smoky eyes and these red lips... OMG she always took my hearth when she smiled with her full charm...oh shanjh I really love your this shade of living life.
As we were talking to each other meanwhile she  got a call from her office to join an  urgent meeting ...ughh .......shanjh  go back with the work ......I want to spend some more time with her but office yr.. & work come first ........and it was me alone in the balcony looking at the sky and remembering all the statement of my lovely wife, evening converted into the black night and when it happened seriously I have no clue about it. I was busy with shanjh memories.... & thinking how much this sun is lucky this sun is off duty that’s why he covered himself by a dark black sheet which is having shiny white dots all over it... omg what happened with me I am talking like shanjh I told to myself.. And sensing the drop in the temperature...
This cool air is hugging me tightly and I  was Smiling....it was funny for me but there was a magic I could feel ,  don’t know how shanjh do this but  every time she took my heart away . Surely she know any magic trick otherwise it is not a cup of tea for a normal human being like me. But I want this magic happen every time till I am alive and I can bet that there is no magician in this world who know this trick
suddenly I realize during the conversation I was dealing with tooth pain... though I really scared of dentist I hate to visit dentist because their weapons...yes I am serious, literally those tools looks like weapons and strong enough to scared any person, but what happen if this tooth pain become unbearable for me... I don’t want to go to dentist but my inner soul told to me before it will too late go and have a visit to dentist, with a hard hearted I decided to take an appointment.
Shanjh called me to have dinner , after having the dinner me and shanjh were on a walk as usual walk is the only time when we talk to each other and share our whole day experience and other necessary things and we never want to lose this time.
Well it was too late we go to bed... Shanjh was looking very tired.... So no sex today as shanjh is looking very tired....
I really want to do that I want to hug her and want to touch her body follow to her curves  play with her curly hair but but but shanjh was tiered  she needs only a sleep so I switched off the lights and go to our bed and try to sleep
It was 2 AM and I am watching a dream .in dream I saw that she open her bleary eyes when the cat, all seven pounds of squirming flesh climbed onto her belly. squinting in from  the open window she discovered that she was now the weary processor of a pounding headache and at some point , had manage to lose both a tooth and a spouse .
Losing a tooth was okay for me because I can bear with it but losing a spouse no I can’t. I think its human nature we can bare anything if it related to us but if something happen to your lovable person you can’t bare it… And actually same thing was happened with me.
I woke up immediately and look at the shanjh and I hold her hand with mine to realize that shanjh is not going anywhere you are sleeping calmly near me. My eyes was full of tears ...but I was happy shanjh was with me, at that moment I want to say shanjh how much I love you shanjh
I love you so much ... thought of losing you make me scared
I never told in words how much I love you but believe me I love you very much
I never told you that I again want to see sun sat with you and want to have a beautiful walk by holding each other hand ... want to follow your footprints on that wet sand...
I never told you it was an amazing feeling when you drew heart on wet sand and write my name inside it...... I wanna do it again shanjh... many times throughout my life...
Though I don’t love so much clicking and posing for a pictures but a candid photo shoot with you, is amazing
I never told you that I still want to play that guitar for you which I bought just to impress you before our marriage, but never played it...
I never propose you but today I don’t  want to wait for  valentine’s day to   propose you but not sitting on my knees but by giving a warm hug and a thanks to be my soul mate.
I love you and never wanna lose you.... You are too my priority shanjh…
My eyes were full of tears.... 
I know I am your priority I am not going anywhere don’t worry she put her other hand on my hand  ...shanjh said ...I was surprised shanjh was not sleeping ...before I could say anything... shanjh smiled and said I love you too today I know that I am the queen of your heart.... I am eagerly waiting for all those loving moment re-happen ... but before doing all this thing you really need a doctor I am sure there is a cavity in your tooth. .
As shanjh said cavity I remembered the dream that shanjh was suffering from headache... I asked to shanjh... are you ok...because in dream you was looking very weak and suffering from headache She smiled and told to me ... oh my dear husband it was only a dream I am 100% fine ...stupid
I kissed her forehead and watching in her eye, without saying a single word by me shanjh smiled and said I know I am a magician....and smiled.....
Yeah, agreed you are such a magician.... and this magician know how to steal heart.....
I was smiling too..... we are happy , go back to sleep ....ahhhhh love is in the air I can sense it ...sometimes word cant says everything , but a single drop of your tear is enough to say everything ... for a moment I was scared , scared of losing my love ...
Words are the medium to talk but emotions doesn’t need words.
Don’t hide your emotions because these emotions are the only thing which differ us from robots, Express your emotions openly and truly to your love and let him /her know how much you love him/her before the clock run, just say everything to your love ..... And always smile.
So what you are married or you are a mature responsible guy ... love doesn’t based on these things... a married man can find his love in his lady so what many years of marriage has been passed so what you are getting older day by date so what you have more responsibilities now  but there should be a spark and loyalty  in every relationship... don’t fuse your love spark just because you are getting older , due to responsibilities or due to your chubby body.... feel you are young ... and this is only mantra to live your life happily 
Trust me it works.......